Every December we get nostalgic and judgmental about our year. We remember the good times and over analyze the not so good ones, trying to mentally fix them. We take a hard look at ourselves, and make a list of what we should improve for the new year. "I should work out more, because I should loose weight. I should find a good/better job, because I should be making lots of money. I should save that money because I should buy all of those shiny new things. I should be more this and less that just so that we can become someone else." It's a superficial positivity made out of false promises and empty resolutions. This December is going to be a little different for me. I'm going to stop trying so hard, and simply allow myself to be and grow without constraints. So this year...
I'm going to spend more time loving and less time expecting to be loved. I'm going to stop holding back and love as much as possible instead. I'm going to look for more good conversations and less fights and be as much as possible a source of support for all of my favorite people.
I'm going to embrace my failures. I'm going to stop beating myself up and instead I'm going to celebrate my mistakes because they are the first step towards growth. Failure is not something I want to be afraid of anymore.
I'm going to be unapologetic. We apologize too often for things we have no control over. We pretend, we excuse, we fake. That's going to be over this year. I'm me and that's good enough.
I'm going to learn to say no. I'm going to stop trying to please everyone at my expense. I'm going to learn to be okay with letting people down sometimes. I'm going to spend less time doing things I'm not interest in and more time taking care of myself.
I'm going to support women. I'm going to make more conscious decisions, about the movies I watch, the art I buy and the books I read. Women are louder than ever and we need to keep that going, keep shouting the wrongs, and supporting each other. There is still a long road ahead of us. We need to celebrate femininity, remind ourselves (and others) that we are intelligent, beautiful and talented beings full of light. We deserve success and fulfillment.
Cheers to a 2018 with deeper conversations, better reads, longer hugs, more emotional art and greater adventures.